Despy Boutris

 

Prayer

& today I pray my feet learn

to face forward, learn a straight line

 

is the shortest distance

between two points. That the squirrels

 

stop pilfering fruit from the fig tree.

That the cancer quits. That my nails

 

refuse to tear & harden into hatchets

that spook the spirits haunting my head.

 

That this state stops turning to flame.

That my spine straightens, learns

 

the meaning of height. That my name

becomes something more

 

than mispronounced. That my hurts

heal like razorcuts, scab over & then scar.

 

That the scars fade, no sleeves soaked red.

That I find the sweet spot in the backwoods

 

of this life, that somewhere

between rapture and rupturing.

 

***** 

Aftermath

The police always ask

about your whereabouts.

 

Where were you

when it happened?

 

They flash their badges,

glowing like gold,

 

and you’re ready

to apologize already,

 

feel like they’re speaking

a foreign tongue,

 

ready to sanction you

for your poor judgment,

 

the tequila

on your breath.

 

Like they’ll campaign

for your coquetry,

 

your courtesy

to the point

 

of conspiracy.

They ask,

 

Why didn’t you

just push him off?

 

 

Bio

Despy Boutris's writing has been published or is forthcoming in Ploughshares, Copper Nickel, American Poetry Review, The Gettysburg Review, Colorado Review, The Journal, Prairie Schooner, and elsewhere. Currently, she teaches at the University of Houston and serves as Poetry Editor for Gulf Coast, Guest Editor for Palette Poetry and Frontier, and Editor-in-Chief of The West Review.

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